Marathon !!!

Ne bukan pasal sukan yek... Tp marathon preparation unt bukak skolah mrgkap marathon mghabihkan duit dlm sekelip mata.... Ritu, rasa cm nk beli bj skolah awal, end nov. Tp pk punya pk, x jadi lar plak, takut2 by end of d month, abg pull-on weight sbb dok kt kg sbln. Yes, It's true, after 2 weeks holiday kt kg, Mak tok dh called, complaint yg ummi bg sluar kecik kt abg, dh x leh nk cakuk/butang.... ekekeke... terus ummi gelak & explain kt mak tok, yg sluar tu x tkecik, cuma perut abg yg makin mbesar. Yg abg bw blik tu suma sluar raya bln aug 2011. Baru 3 bln lepas... Humanggg aaaiiihhhh..... abg mmg ikut genetik penang, bulat2 belaka.... Seb bek x beli awal, klu x kena sedekah kt org lar jawap nyer... So, ummi dh plan, amik abg blik sini on christmas & ummi apply AL hari slasa smata2 nk siapkan pkakas abg.

Maka pada pagi 27 nov, ummi pon start marathon :

1. G KIDAS, byr yuran + beli buku etc RM198.50.
   Yuran skolah rm53, monthly fee for jan + nov rm80, tabung pembinaan rm50, buku tulis rm10.50, lencana rm5. Seb bek tahun ne, wat ptama kalinya, KIDAS dpt subsidi buku dr JAIS. So, kurang ler sket belanja nyer
   
   
2. G SKSU, nk beli buku. Bila tgok q pnjg, ada 4 row, terus kansel. Ummi mnta list pastu tanya kul bp tutup koperasi. Seb bek dia kata tutup kul 5, so ummi decide g bli bj skolah & petang dtg smula.
   
   
3. G Hari2, BBSB. Hohohoho....rm411.05 telah bjaya ummi habiskan. Beli 4 pasang bj skolah + 5 pasang bj skolah agama+sampin. Sepasang kasut + stokin+ spenda . Tu pon, ummi amik brand jhonny&jenny jer.... tp yg gred kain canggih lar.... Punya ler pening carik bj melayu abg sbb suma tmpat jual ikut spsg. x der jual sluar asing, baju asing. Spti yg dijgka, mmg susah nk pilih sbb masalah perut abg... ekekeke... klu beli sluar yg ok, baju nya akan gedobos yg amat, klu bj ok, sluar ketat. At last ummi just try amik bj saiz 34, baju ok, cuma sluar ngam2... Masa cari spenda lak, as expected, abg dh x muat spenda saiz kanak2. Dh kena beli saiz S unt lelaki dewasa...Huargghhh... anak ummi dh besar nyer...Bila blik, bw suma sluar + baju g umah Kak Nyah unt alter/potong kaki sluar + jahit lencana, Kak Nyah suh ummi g tukar smula bj melayu, tu, amik saiz 36. NNt kak Nyah alter baju nyer yg gedobos tu, jnji sluar abg selesa + leh tahan lama. Klu saiz 34 tu, takut x tahan smpai ujung tahun...huhuhu....
   
   
4. G The store, mghabiskan RM103.80 unt stationery + water bottle. Mahal nyer.... Botol air 3, 2 unt abg 1 unt adik. Pensel box pooh - 2 unt ummi ....ekekeke... jiwa ummi ttp remaja (oitt... ummi mmg peminat tegar pooh tau. Abg suka tigger, sbb tu dia x leh jln, asek melompat @ blari jer cm tigger) Pastu beli berkotak2 pensel, eraser, ruler, sharperner, colour etc.... Korg jgn x tau, anak ummi ne pesen makan stationery. Hari2 pegi skolah bw pensel 3 batang, ruler, sharperner + eraser. Tp bila blik skolah, dia hanya bw balik pensel box kosong. Kdg2, pensel box pon tadaaa.... Klu ummi mmbebel, dia akan kata, kawan pinjam x bg balik. Bila ummi kata jgn pinjamkan, dia kata kesian, kawan x der pensel... dia ada byk lg pensel kt umah..huhuhu.... pemurahnya abg (p/s: mak to kata ummi dulu2 lg pemurah, siap bg duit poket ummi kat adik spupu/adik angkat ummi masa skolah rendah dulu). Nek tgkat atas the store, beli kasut palas jazz sepasang kt abg. Ummi pon beli lar kasut sport unt ummi (p/s: kasut tu diperlukan unt merealisasikan azam carry foward ummi hehehe....). Disebabkan ummi beli kasut sport ummi, maka abg merengek2 mnuntut kasut bola dia yg walid janji nk beli bertahun2 lepas... :) . Akhirnya, lebur lagi RM132. Nek atas beli songok abg RM12. Ttba rasa kempis lak wallet ummi... hurrmmm....
   
   
5. g SKSU smula unt beli buku tulis + buku aktiviti. Smpai skolah jer dh kul 4.45pm.... Ngam2, sbb kedai tutp kul 5pm. Line clear, tggl x smpai 10org. Lepas kira2 3-4 kali, jmlah suma RM60++, tu pon ada jer lg buku yg dh abis... NNt 2 mggu pas skolah buka, baru stok buku tu masuk.
   
   
6. g Karnival, smata2 nk beli pensel box angry bird unt abg kononnya. End-up ngan singlet 6 helai unt abg + kaler swan 36 btg + shoe brite. Total bill RM82.10
   
   
7. g CM unt beli barang2 dapur. Mmg ummi slalu beli brg2 kering sbln skali, beli pampers unt adik, beli toileteries etc... Mmg penuh 1 trolley lar, klu x masakan bill nyer cecah RM297.50

Uhuk3x berakhir lah riwayat sebahagian gajiku dlm masa sehari jerk... RM1236.95 hilang sekelip mata, mmg marathon sopping kan... Beg skolah x beli lg ne.... masih postponed, sbb x jmpa lg beg agry bird yg abg abg nak. Dmm angry bird tul, suma mende mesti nk ader cop angry bird. Gamaknya, klu ada bj skolah angry bird, mesti dia paksa ummi beli kott..

Aduyaiii.... bila lar nak gaji lg ne.... Cash advance pon x settle2 lg ne... mmg dh x layak sbb advance, sbb delay jer mnjang. Rekod ummi sblum ne, dpt cash advance dpt dihari gaji, tp kali ne betul2 pecah rekod, dh 3 mggu pon masih x siap lg, dh lepas gaji dh pon...aduyaiii.... Klu x mgenangkan, skolah dh nk buka rabu depan, mmg ummi x kan marathon sopping gila babas cm ner... tp nk wat cmner, seb bek anak sorg jer yg skolah.

X per lar Zakwan, janji, tahun depan, Zakwan skolah rajin2, jgn smpai turun kelas. Next year, kt KIDAS, abg turun ke 2nd class, tp percentage 90%. Budak2 skang mmg bijak sgt, ummi check peratusan kelas, unt 1st class, student yg dpt no.1, tu score 100%. yg dpt no40 dlm 1st class tu dpt almost 94%. Unt 2nd class, eventhough Zakwan dpt 90%, dia dpt ranking ke-11 dlm kelas tau... huhuhu.... leh migraine lar klu nk dpt no.1 ne.... X per, as a parent, kita sptutnya fikir ttg percentage, bukannyer no. bp anak kita dpat.... Apa2 pon, ummi harap, tahun 2012, akan mematangkan Zakwan, smoga dgn preparation bagai nak rak ne, menaikkan smangat dia... Janji, anak ummi maintain 90 above, dh memadai. Amin.

I'm Happy :)

Since smlm ummi rasa hepi sesangat.... Sbnrnyer, x der lar berita gembira pon.... cuba rasa relief sbb :

1. Baru lepas 1 annoying task in d off. (p/s: just 1 lar.... there are long-q task for me to settle down by this 2 weeks lar...., just pretend to be happy before start the irritating one... hahaha)
2. Ummi dh start blajar Ngaji ngan Ustazah Zakwan Jumaat lepas. Since Zakwan blajar ngaji last year, ummi pon tertarik nk blajar smula. Ye lar, mmg kita tahu ngaji, tp tajwid, tunggang langgang.... Masa umi kecik2 dulu, mana lar belajar tajwid, ngaji kat Tok Ngah pon pakai hafal2 jer... Pastu, bila masuk skolah agama, suma org dh expert tajwid, sapa nak ajar ummi... huhuhu... seb bek ummi ne baca lancar lar jugak (mgkin sbb 3 tahun dok AIGS kot, ikut2 senior ngan kwn... dpt ler tempias sket2). Anyway, Thanks to my late dad, because forcing me to school there. If not, for sure, ummi lg hmpas dr skang...
3. Baru lepas 2 test sabtu lepas. Satu subject tu dpt result hr ahad, ummi score (39-1)/40. Korg nk tau naper -1, sbb ummi x boh nama bapak lecturer ummi.... hehehe.... (ada ker patut......, tp tu kan hak my lecturer rite??? huhuhu...)
4. Dh dpt sch unt final exam, 4, 14 & 20 Jan 2012. Thanks GOD, there are enuf time in between to review... Tp besa lar ummi, x penah insap, mesti stadi last minit gak nnt...
5. Baru tengok Ombak Rindu ngan my beloved hubby last sunday nite. Ummi mmg dh merengek2 kt walid dr masa aku g miting kt Dungun mggu lepas... Masa tu, kitorg siap sggah mesra mall, tp tiket dh sold out. Gamaknya, walid pon dh x tahan dgr hari2 ummi menyeru ombak rindu, akhirnya kitorg g beli tiket petang ahad tu, pass ummi habis kelas. Mula ingat nk g tgok kt Jusco Kepong, skali, x ditayangkan kt situ... hampeh tul.... cmner gmbar best tu x leh terjah panggung jusco tu??? Mmg lar situ area Cinapek, tp tg pelik tu movie "Datin Ghairah" leh plak ditayangkan kt situ... huisshhh... muskel tol....Sgaja pilih movie kul 9.15pm, spy Umairah ttdo masa halfway movie tu. Pas dia turun nek tgga panggung tu berpuluh2 kali, kejap2 nenen (seb bek gelap :) ).... ttdo gak dia, smpai bdgkur...(Dia letih sbb dia ngan walid, jln2 2 org, dr pagi, pas hntr ummi, smpai petang). So, Akhirnya ummi bjaya gak mmbazirkan air mata ummi... (lmbt sket nk feel sbb Umairah lmbt tdo... hua3x)
6. Kemarin dh siap kemas lemari buku ummi + Zakwan. End-up, ummi pack kan suma pa-ma magazine ummi, masuk dlm plastik, simpan dlm lemari bpintu (dh x display), sbb ummi x suka Zakwan asek baca buku tu... hissshhhh.... byk yg 18sx kat buku tu.... Risau lak ummi bila tgok Abg asek belek2x buku tu, Anak teruna ummi tu mmg advance, dia dh x nk baca buku level dia dah... Ummi suka, tapi kadang2 susah hati, takut dia terlebih advance, sbb nnt soklan cepumas dia akan wat ummi ngan walid tnganga.... huhuhu....
7. One of my close fren, ada taman dlm hati.... hua3x... Walaupon, x der rama2 lagi, tp ummi rasa cm nk tolong boh-kan rama2 kt taman dia tu.... (jgn x tau, ummi ne the best match-maker, zaman kampus dulu. Siap ada yg smpai kawen & beranak pinak dh skang....)..... My fren, I'm always pray for your happiness.... p/s : ceh... aku laks yg tlebih happy, cm rasa jatuh cinta skali lg jerkk... (Ahmad Faizul, tolong lar balas cintaku..... I luv u honey...)

Sbnrnya, dh lama ummi rasa x seseronok cm hari ne..... Ya ALLAH, alangkah indahnya kalau setiap hari cm ne.... Aminnn....

Zakwan's 8yo

Since bulan posa ritu, abg dh mula bg hints pasai besday dia. Dia nk cup-cakes. Slalunya, dia celebrate birthday pd 5 syawal. But this year, 5 syawal kitorg on d way blik Sg. Buloh, so ummi postpones his celebration to the actual date 30-Nov. Bila dh start cuti skolah, dia tanya smula, ummi jd x belikan dia cup-cakes. Ummi kata, lom tempah lg, naper?? Rupa2nya, dia nk tukar plak, nak kek angry bird. X kesah lar, cup-cakes ker, kek besar ker... jnji ada gmbar angry bird. Puas ummi memerah otak, nk tmpah kek tu. Bila tanya kawan, x der sapa nk watkan. Sampai lar ke 29-Nov. tu, ummi punya lar bz, smpai tlupa "janji2 manisku". Smpai umah mlm tu, abg tanya mana kek dia. Terus ummi ckp, yg ummi x smpat nak belikan kek lagi, even besday abg besok, why not, we just celebrate it by this weekend. Nnt ummi beli kek, pastu, kita kuar mkn2.

Dr mlm tu, ummi dh set mind, esok tghr, g bank, pastu ummi nk merayap kt kedai2 kek kt bdr baru sg buloh tu, nak cari kek angry bird. Klu x der, ummi nak tmpah kt kedai kek jer, hr ahad br pick-up. Still ada masa lg... Tp, mgkin, Allah tu nk memudahkan keje ummi, tghr tu, ummi g bank. Dpt parking pon senang. Masa lintas kedai kek tepi am-bank tu, ummi nmpak kepala angry bird...

YEAHHAAAAA...... Ya bedu2x.... Comey sungguh "burung pemarah" itu.

Tengok, comey kannn???

RM34 for 0.5kg kek. Walaupun, dlm dia hanyalah choc-sponge kek yg biasa2 jer, tp finishing dia, amtlah cantik... Balik opis jer, terus ummi called walid, suh walid blik awal, sbb nk abg tiup lilin... hehehe.... biasanya, walid kul 9.30mlm, br smpai umah, kdg2 abg dh ttdo pon... Lgpon, ummi takut, abg nmpak jer kek tu terus dia excited.... kg dia frust lak, klu walid lmbat blik.

Masa amik abg kt umah Ibu, dia dh nmpak byk brg2 dlm kete, tp ummi kata tu suma brg2 ofis, nk kene hntr kt main-con sbb nk bw ke Byn Lepas. So, dia pon wat muka sedih.... ( ye lar... dia mmg mgharap birthday kek angry bird kan...)

Bila smpai umah jer, dia terus masuk, x nak tolong ummi angkat brg2 pon... Kebetulan, hr tu, ummi baru gaji, so ummi sopping 2 pampers besar unt. adik + susu 1kg - 4 pek, stok unt sbln hehehe..... mmg byk plastik, so dia x perasan kotak kek tu.....

Last skali, br ummi bw masuk kek dia. Dia wat2 tanya, aper tu ummi???? Bila ummi kata jer, birthday kek, abg lar..... terus muka dia ceria...

TADAAA..... tgok, tu.... sengih baik punya......

Tegok, tu..... Adik bz tul..... cm besday dia plak.... bising ya-amat mulut dia mencecehh.... hurmmm.... walaupon, x der sapa paham bahase adik, tp kitorg tau, dia nk cekau2 + ramas2 kek cantik abg... Cuba korg tgok, tgan adik..... menuju ke arah kek.... haipppp....

huhuh.... masa walid snap, gmbar tu, adik smpt cabut kening angry bird tu, x smpt nk bakar lilin lg.... seb bek, masih boleh diselamatkan.... tp dh comot sket lar kt blakng kening tu....

Bila siap2 potong + makan kek tu, ummi mandi pastu kitorg g carrefour subang jaya. Ummi nk jmpa main-con, nk mnta tolong pass kan drill + jigsaw ke byn lepas. Walid ngan baik hatinya, setuju dgn pelawaan ummi unt dinner kt kenny rogers carrefour... Huh, muka abg ngan adik happy jer.... Masa dine-in tu dh kul 9.15pm, seb bek kenny rogers tutup kul 10pm. Tgh makan2 tu, waiter tu dtg mnta byr dulu sbb nak tutup cashier.... hehehehe.... x penah kitorg mkn selewat ne... x per lar.... jnji abg gembira.....

Menu wajib abg, macaroni cheese. Semangkuk tu, mmg dia pulun sorg. Jgn harap lar nk tumpang sekaki....

Adik makan macaroni cheese + mashed potato... Dia kulum2 macaroni tu, bila dh tawar, dia luahkan, masuk blik dlm pinggan tu, pastu dia tolak pinggan tu ke abg, suh abg habiskan.... ekekeke..... adik mmg suka kemam jer.... bila lar, puteri walid ne nak besar yek???

Smpena abg ber umur 8 tahun, Ummi dh decide, nk panggil nama abg sbg Zakwan jer... dh x nak panggil Faris. Sbbnyer ... ummi rasa abg nakal sgt skang... Latest problem, Hari Khamis, 1 Dec, tgn abg yg patah ritu, tkehel plak... Seb bek kt jari kelinking + manis jer... Sbb bgaduh ngan abg Fakhrudin... Hisshhhh... musim2 cuti skolah ne, mmg pening lar kpala ibu korg kt umah tu, sbb anak2 suma ada..... klu x, sibuk g skolah pg, petang... malam baru happening. Ne, bila cuti skolah, mmg sentiasa pening jer lar... kejap2 gaduh, pastu baik smula... jp g gaduh balik.... hurrmmmmm mgkin, nama pon mmberi makna gakk... sbb Ahmad = yg terpuji, Faris = penunggang kuda, Zakwan = yg bijaksana. Dok, panggil Faris, tu yg abg ligat smacam jer.... Biar ummi tukar, panggil Zakwan, Smoga abg jd anak yg makin bijaksana yerkk....

Untuk Abang :

"Selamat ulang tahun kelahiran yang ke-8. Semoga Zakwan jd anak yg Soleh & bermanfaat kepada keluarga & masyarakat. Semoga Zakwan berjaya di dunia & Akhirat. Aminnn...."

Raya 2011 @ 1432h

Huishhh... punya lar lama ummi simpan entry ne, since raya posa ritu, till after raya haji, still x publish... ekekeke... pemalas.... cmner nk tulis novel cm ne.... wakaka.... (terkenang hobi masa dok boarding school lar plak...)

Raya hari tu, really great. Kitorg balik awal sbb ummi kena stndby kt PMU BLPS dr hari Rabu (almost a week b4 raya). Apa lagi, ngangkut suma balik terus lar... Walid pon ikut balik, punya lar lama kitorg kt Juru, 10 days... puas tul hati ummi.... hehehe...

On 2nd day raya, kitorg bkonvoi 2 bijik kete g umah Pak Teh kt Tmn Saga, Kulim. Pak Teh ne, adik ayah ummi. Ayah ummi cuma ada 3 beradik, Ayah, Pak Teh Bakar & Cik Diah. Apart of that, Ayah ada sorg lg adik, Angah aka Kak Besah yg tok & tok wan bela since dia kecik lagi. Ummi 4 beradik mmg x reti pggil dia mak ngah, coz, beza umo Cik Diah & Kak Besah, just a few years older than Abg Chop(my eldest bro). Masa Mak kawen ngan Ayah, depa dua org mmg kecik lg. Jarak umo ayah ngan cik dia mmg jauh coz, in between them, ada byk beradik lg, tp suma mnggal masa bb @ Tok keguguran.

Pak Teh ne, pencen askar, tp since last 2 yrs, dia uzur sgt, dia kena strok, so skang dia dh x leh jalan. But, he recover a bit, dulu almost paralyze, tp bila mak teh dok urut2 kaki dia & anak2 dok bw dia berubat alternatif merata, skang dia dh leh ngesot sket... Ok lar tu, at least dia leh ngesot ke sinki yg Abg Chop modified unt Pak Teh berwudhuk sendiri... Tp Pak Teh x leh dok lama2, nnt dia pening.

Bila ummi rindu arwah Ayah, ummi mesti tingat Pak Teh. Till one time, masa tu ummi dh sarat ngandung kt Abg Faris, ummi rindu sgt kt arwah ayah, hari2 tdo celah ketiak walid ngan korek/main pusat walid (tu mende yg paling beshh... masa tdo celah ketiak ayah... wakaka....) pon still rasa missin somethin'. End up, ummi ajak walid balik kg, g umah pak teh. for the 1st time, Ummi peluk + cium pipi pak teh puas2.... hurmm.... rasa puas, cm dpt cium ayah... Mesti suma org pelik masa tu, sbb ummi slama hidup sblum ne hanya salam + cium tgn Pak Teh jer... From that day, till now, setiap kali g umah pak teh, mesti ummi akan cium pipi pak teh puas2... Pedulikan, apa org nak kata, Pak Teh kan mmg Ayah ummi jugak kan?? even, Pak Teh pon mmg boleh walikan ummi klu Ayah x der... Ummi nampak Ayah dlm diri Pak Teh....sobb.. sob.. sob...

Pak Teh adalah versi ayah yg kurus (sbb arwah ayah berisi). Tgok, Adik x takut pon kt Tok Wan... Slalunya, adik tak kan senang mesra klu org yg dia jrg2 jumpa... tp ngan Tok Wan, elok jer leh main balang kerepek... X takut langsung.

Ummi & Walid - After 9 years married

plus Abg + Adik

Adik yg x berenti buli abg.... Still nak cubit abg walaupon x smpai....

Sebahagian kluarga besar ummi, Mak Tok yg still awet muda (this year mak tok dh 61yo), Ibu Sarah (Anak Sulung Cik Diah), Angah aka Kak Besah & Muhammad Adib (Anak Abg Chot, my 2nd bro). Hopefully, next year lg meriah raya nyer yerk.... Ibu Sarah pon bakal menambahkan bilangan ahli keluarga besar kami... hehehe...

Syukran Ya Allah

Dh lama ummi x update blog yg bsawang ne... Banyak yg nak dicoretkan, tp x tau nak mula tulis cmner... baru jer pgg lappy, mesti adik pon nak tumpang skaki... susah tul nk cari kesempatan dlm kesempitan masa..

Hidup ne terlalu banyak cabaran kan???? Rasanya dlm 2 tahun kebelakangan ne... too much burden & too much hurts in my life... Sometimes I'm lost... too difficult to say it out loud. Apa yang pasti ALLAH x kan berikan beban maha hebat ne klu ummi x mampu mnggungnyer kan?? ALLAH tu Maha Adil. Diberikan nikmat di sini ttp, diberikan kesusahan dtmpt yg lain. Mungkin hari ini kita melihat ianya sebagai musibah, tapi mgkin dimasa depan kita bersyukur kerana musibah itulah yg memberikan pulangan lumayan suatu hari nanti. Kalau x didunia, mungkin disyurga kan??? Ujian ini diberikan mungkin unt menyedarkan ummi yg jauh tersasar... I'm always take a granted atas apa yg ada... X per lar, lepas ne, kena slalu beringat... Siapa kawan, siapa lawan. Siapa sahabat, siapa peneman....

My campus life also turning upside down. From 3.33 point down to 2.86 & up again to 3.02... Ya ALLAH, berikan aku peluang kedua.. Yang pasti aku bersyukur kena Engkau titipkan 2 sahabat setiaku di sini...

Kak Amy & Nelly. Thanks for everything...

Bila ummi dgr lagu TANPAMU - AMIR JAHARI, mesti tingat kat Kak Amy... hehehe... Yg pasti tanpa korang berdua mesti ummi kantoi kan??? cuba korang tgok chorus ne, mmg ngam kan unt korang berdua hehehe....

"TanpamuKu kan terlewat

TanpamuKu kan sedih

Kerana kau lah penyelamat

Dan akan sentiasa di hati"

Mariage

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

by: Islamic Reflections

Wanita itu

Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda:

اسْتَوْصُوْا بِالنِّسَاءِ خَيْرًا، فَإِنَّ الْمَرْأََةَ خُلِقَتْ مِنْ ضِلَعٍ … -وَفِي رِوَايَةٍ- الْمَرْأََةُ كَالضِّلَعِ … (مُتَّفَقٌ عَلَيْهِ)

“Berwasiatlah kalian dengan kebaikan kepada para wanita (para istri)1, karena wanita itu diciptakan dari tulang rusuk…” Dalam satu riwayat: “Wanita itu seperti tulang rusuk….” (HR. Al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

Al-Lajnah Ad-Da`imah lil Buhuts Al-Ilmiyyah wal Ifta` yang saat itu diketuai Samahatusy Syaikh Abdul Aziz bin Abdillah bin Baz rahimahullahu menjawab, “Zahir hadits menunjukkan bahwa wanita dan yang dimaukan di sini adalah Hawa diciptakan dari tulang rusuk Adam. Pengertian seperti ini tidaklah menyelisihi hadits lain yang menyebutkan penyerupaan wanita dengan tulang rusuk. Bahkan diperoleh faedah dari hadits yang ada bahwa wanita serupa dengan tulang rusuk. Ia bengkok seperti tulang rusuk karena memang ia berasal dari tulang rusuk. Maknanya, wanita itu diciptakan dari tulang rusuk yang bengkok maka tidak bisa disangkal kebengkokannya. Apabila seorang suami ingin meluruskannya dengan selurus-lurusnya dan tidak ada kebengkokan padanya niscaya akan mengantarkan pada perselisihan dan perpisahan. Ini berarti memecahkannya2. Namun bila si suami bersabar dengan keadaan si istri yang buruk, kelemahan akalnya dan semisalnya dari kebengkokan yang ada padanya niscaya akan langgenglah kebersamaan dan terus berlanjut pergaulan keduanya. Hal ini diterangkan para pensyarah hadits ini, di antaranya Al-Hafizh Ibnu Hajar rahimahullahu dalam Fathul Bari (6/368) semoga Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala merahmati mereka semua. Dengan ini diketahuilah bahwa mengingkari penciptaan Hawa dari tulang rusuk Adam tidaklah benar.” (Fatwa no. 20053, kitab Fatawa Al-Lajnah Ad-Da`imah lil Buhuts Al-Ilmiyyah wal Ifta`, 17/10)

1 Al-Qadhi rahimahullahu berkata: “Al-Istisha` adalah menerima wasiat, maka makna ucapan Nabi Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam ini adalah aku wasiatkan kalian untuk berbuat kebaikan terhadap para istri maka terimalah wasiatku ini.” (Tuhfatul Ahwadzi)

2 Dalam riwayat Al-Imam Muslim rahimahullahu disebutkan bahwa Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda:

((إِنَّ الْمَرْأَةََ خُلِقَتْ مِنْ ضِلَعٍ, لَنْ تَسْتَقِيْمَ لَكَ عَلَى طَرِيْقَةٍ, فَإِنِ اسْتَمْتَعْتَ بِهَا اِسْتَمْتَعْتَ بِهَا وَفِيْهَا عِوَجٌ, وَإِنْ ذَهَبْتَ تُقِيْمُهَا كَسَرْتَهَا وَكَسْرُهَا طَلاَقُهَا))

“Sesungguhnya wanita diciptakan dari tulang rusuk, ia tidak bisa lurus untukmu di atas satu jalan. Bila engkau ingin bernikmat-nikmat dengannya maka engkau bisa bernikmat-nikmat dengannya namun padanya ada kebengkokan. Jika engkau memaksa untuk meluruskannya, engkau akan memecahkannya. Dan pecahnya adalah talaknya.”

Dikutip dari http://www.asysyariah.com Penulis : Redaksi Sakinah Fatawa Al-Lajnah Ad-Da`imah lil Buhuts Al-Ilmiyyah wal Ifta` Al-Mar`ah Al-Muslimah, judul Wanita Diciptakan dari Tulang Rusuk?.

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Dah bpinau2 mata aku... tolonggg.... dh trip pastu block. Somebody!!!! pls reset me.............

Maisarah & Makanan.

Adik adalah peneman setia ummi spjg 2 mggu posa ne. Setiap pg, bila ummi bangun unt masak sahur. Dia pon bangun. Masa makan, apatah lg. Abih suma mende nak di amik. Pastu ramas2 suma yg ada dlm mgkuk dia, then nak suapkan ke mulut ummi. Beria2... Bila ummi taknak, dia akan boh dlm pggan ummi.... huhuhu... Masa bukak posa x yah cite r. Pantang nmpak org berhidang. Dia serbu dulu. Dia suka spagetthi, smlm ummi wat spagetthi. Masa dia nampak ummi sendukkan masuk dlm pinggan, tbuntang mata dia nengok, ngan ekspresi muka excited dia lar... Ummi suh walid bagi roti john kt dia smntara ummi nak siap2 kan makan abg. Huh, dia x nak amik roti john tu. Masa ummi hulur pinggan spagetthi tu kt abg, ummi perasan yg adik x puas hati. Hahaha... adik kan x posa, kene lar bg keutamaan pada abg yg bposa. Yg pastinya adik mmg suka makan sendiri. Cuma walid lar slalu x puas hati sbb adik comot giler + kotorkan lantai (walaupon ummi dh lapik ngan saprah).

Cuba korang layan gmbar2 adik yg comot ne :

Adik makan nestum sendiri. Bila ummi suap, dia akan luah. Kdg2 dia tutup mulut dia rapat2 bila nmpak ummi pegang sudu.

Ne lar hasil nyer.

Macam teddy bear kan?? Idung wana coklat.

Walid tangkap adik yg tgh enjoy makan coklat.

Menjerit2 dia mintak dilepaskan.

Korg tengok lar hasil kerja tangan dia. Mana lar walid x bising.

Adik makan speggethi kegemaran dia.

Ummi bg sudu plastik baby, dia x nak. Di amiknya sudu besi ummi. Bila suap jer, sudu tu leh tutup idung adik (meluaskan kawasan unt dicomotkan) hehehe...

Adik pandai wat "slruppp" (sedut mee/maggi/spagetthi)

Ne mgkuk oren adik. Ummi ada byk mgkuk ne. Bila ummi pakai salah satu mgkuk ne unt bhidang, dia slalu ingat yg tu unt dia. Padahal ummi dh bg dia mgkuk oren len. Mesti dia x puas hati. Mind set dia, suma mgkuk oren dia punya. Hahaha...

Adik suka makan durian. Biji durian lagi dia suka. Smpai blubang digigitnya. Kadang2 dia raba kulit durian. Mesti dia pelik kan, napa bila pegang kulit durian rasa tajam yek???

Walaupun adik suka menyibuk masa makan. Dia kurus lar... Bila maktok bising kata ummi x bg cucu dia cukup makan, ummi nak tunjuk gmbar ne. Yg pasti dia byk kemam makanan dia. Klu mende tu pejal, mesti diluahkan smula. Dia dh ada 8 btg gigi depan + 4 batang geraham yg br nak tumbuh. Meggigit org pandai ya amat. Lg satu, dia suka yak2, mgkin sbb tu dia x mmbesar kot. hahaha...

Aku dah mengong

Mengong lar aku skang ne. Keje asek salah jer.... x paham tol. Since wat keje long distance ne, aku makin serabut. Baru 2 mggu lepas kene kansel FAT sbb panel x siap. Mggu ne, cm nak jadi yg sama gak... x leh jadi. Rosak teruk KPI aku. Yup, design is the most toughest part. But, become a project management lg sakit otak. Kene keje ngan byk team. Nak coordinate site-design-manufacturing-testing. Nak entertain client. Nak kene jg hati boss-kawan-sub ordinate... huhuhu.. Aku mmg x suka... x suka... tu lar dulu mak suh jadi che'gu. x nak. eksen lar sgt.. nak keje engineering.. huh, padan muka skang.... rasakan... ne lar balasan x nak dengan cakap mak aku. :'(

p/s: entry mggunakan pkataan aku, sbb aku tgh tensen sgt !!!

Si Cantik...

Gegirl is always gegirl. Adik mmg dh mula tunjukn ciri gegirl dia skang. Pantang di puji, tsenyum simpul jer. Klu nak pakaikan dia hairband @ cekak, mesti beserta ngan puji-pujian. Baru lar leh pakai. Klu x, abih di tariknya. Dia dh paham makna cantik. hehehe...

Cuba tgok adik bgaya ngan baju raya + cekak bulu2 ne... Hehehe.. sbnrnya, ummi yg teruja. Lmbat tul mnggu raya tahun ne... isk.. isk.. isk... tak sabar nyer

Skang ne, pantang nampak ummi @ walid kuar umah. Menorek dia ngikut ke pintu. Siap bawak kasut dia lagi tu.. Kemarin masa ummi nak sidai kain, ummi tanya dia smada nk ikut ummi sidai kain kat luar ker tak? Terus dia cangak2, pastu amik kasut dia sebelah, bawa ke muka pintu. Bila ummi tanya mana sebelah lg kasutnyer. Terus dia merangkak ke dlm umah pastu dia bw hairband tunjuk kt ummi. hehehe... tau saja, klu nk kuar umah mesti pakai kasut + hias diri cantik2.

Kadang2, klu dia x jmpa kasut dia. Dia akan tercari2 apa mende yg sesuai. Ada satu hari tu, dia jmpa sikat. Dia bawa sikat tu ke muka pintu, pastu panggil ummi yg tgh sidai kain. Nak suh sikatkan rmbut dia lar tu. Nak kuar. Klu pagi2, bila nmpak walid bukak pintu unt hntr abg g skolah, cepat2 dia capai tudung dia. Sbnrnya ummi bg adik pakai tudung pg2 sbb ummi rasa sejuk sgt angin pagi.

Hehehe... cuba tgok ne, gaya anak dara ummi nk hntr abg g skolah.

Kadang2, bila hari hujan, walid akan hntr abg g skolah nek kete. Bila ummi kata yg adik x yah ikut lar, hari hujan. Cepat2 dia merangkak, pastu amik baju sejuk dia, bawa ke muka pintu. Pastu wat muka kesian kt walid dia. Udahnya ngikut jugak lar...

Hehehe... Anak dara ummi sorang.

Western Food Fever

Something miss from my life??? Since ummi further study & since Maisarah was born, I'm don't have enough time to cook. Almost everyday tapau from outside : Nasi goreng USA, N.G. Udang, N.G. Ikan masin etc... Until early July, after coming back from Skudai, I'm decide drastically, because of below touching statement:

Faris : Abg x nak makan!!!

Ummi : Nape plak

Faris : Abg x lalu

Ummi : Abis tu abg nak mkn apa?

Faris : Boleh tak kita makan masakan rumah???

I'm wondering, menatang hapakah itu? Masakan rumah??

Faris : Nasi goreng kat kedai tu dh x sedap lar... Apa kata ummi masak!!!

hhooo... nak ummi masak kt umah... :) Cakap lar terang2. So, just asking his opinion about d menu. Dia kata x nak nasi. Bila ummi cakap jer kat walid, terus walid kata kita makan western. Lgpon, walid nak diet. X nak makan nasi mlm2.

So, ne lar western food pertama ummi. Sebenarnya, dulu masa ummi x smbung study, ummi slalu masak.

Chicken Grill. Ummi pakai boneless chicken (unt chicken chop) perap ngan sos tiram (byk), sedikit kicap+sos cili, black pepper, rosemary + sedikit garam. Grill for 30mins. Side Dishes Coleslaw, kentang, salad, timun + tomato.

Chicken Grill + Side Dishes Coleslaw, kentang + sosej

Beef Steak. Thangus sket :) Silap bajet masa, ingat danging keras, so ummi set 45mins. Rasanya 30mins dh cukup. Side Dishes Coleslaw, kentang + salad.

Rasa enjoy sgt bila boleh masak. Menenangkan. So, pasne kena masak slalu lar unt menenangkan minda. Caiyok2..

Jeram - 2 July 2011

Ummi decide unt g tgok BFF ummi aka Maksu Ilah kat Bangi hari ne. Dah 2 mggu dia bsalin, tp ummi masih x kesempatan g tgok dia. Kuar seawal2 pagi, kul 9am, sbb byk tmpt nk sggah unt byr bill sblom smpai Bangi. Mula2 g byr astro kat PJ, pastu g Maxis KLCC unt byr bill. Kbetulan ummi nak komplen pasal broadband ne, ada ke patut depa salah enter & make separate bill for internet & charge rm68/monthly. Suppose rm38 jer for d 1st 3 month. Waive 30 coz ummi pgguna tegar maxis (promo sbb ummi ada 3 line maxis). Ummi dh komplen kt maxis the store Sg Buloh, diorg dh betulkan. So the next month bill dh combine, unfortunately, bill lama yg salah enter tu masih dihantar & they claim it as outstanding. Huh, mana boleh jd. Punya lar lama tggu smpai adik leh meragam... Ngam smpai turn, adik yak2 lar plak, kembang-kwmpis idung ummi dokong adik kt kaunter. Mesti org kaunter tu pelik, mana lar dtg bau acheemmm ne :)

Pastu sggh UTM, amik surat KWSP. Siap singgah cafe padang, parking ngam tepi kaki lima sbb adik tdo dlm kete. Abg mkn hotdog besar 2 btg. Huh, his fav. asal dtg je utm mesti dia tingat hot dog tu, siap pesan boh mustard lg... Smpai umah ilah dh kul 2pm. Lepak2 smpai kul 5pm. On d way balik, walid ajak try hiway baru, 'LATAR'. Hiway ne mghubungkan kuala selangor ke templer park. Leh tembus smpai ke kuantan. Mula2 kitorg mghala ke Kuantan, tp lepas je tmn komonwel, walid u-turn ke kuala selangor. Jln ke Kuantan suram, cm jln ke genting (tgantung/kene pakai tiang unt support hiway). Jln ke kuala s'gor best, besar, luas, cm guthrie sbb kiri kanan dia ladang kelapa sawit.

Mmg hiway ne mmendekkan jln ke kuala s'gor. Dlm 20mins++ dh smpai. Skang free lg, tp nnt klu dh ada tol, x tau lar bp diorg nk charge. Dgr2 rm2/toll. Mahal gak. Distance each toll cm elmina ke bkt jelutong jer.. dekat sgt. Tp since ummi keje itec, dh x bp bkira ngan toll, jnji cepat smpai & x jem. Ummi rasa cm lapar jer, tp malas nak blik masak. Slalu, klu kuar jln2, mmg kitorg akan sggh makan @ tapau sblum blik umah. Once bukak jer mulut kt walid ttba ummi tpndang sigboard "Muara Ikan Bakar". Dan, x dsgka2, walid belokkan kete ke sana...

Yeehaaaa... I luv u honey. Bkn senang nk dpt peluang cggini. Klu ajak jer, mesti walid diam jer... Tak nak g ler tu. Crowded lar tmptnya. Nk kata sedap, x lar sgt (mentang2 lar aku dok dlm gedung makan). But, surrounding makes me fall in love. Suka, makn2 smbil dgr bunyi ombak. Dpt tgok sunset. Dsbbkan kitorg smpai dh kul 6.30pm++, dh sah2 x der tmpt duduk. Bpusing2 ummi cari meja. Pelayan dia dh x leh nk chekkan meja, org dh melimpah ruah. Walid dh sound ummi, klu x der jom kita balik. Eeehhh... x mgkin... Ummi sggup tebalkan muka g tanya meja ke meja. Lepas diorg mkn ada org booking x? Lama gak lar, at the end ummi dpt lah meja tu. Kul 7.15pm++ gak lar br leh dok. Faris mmg enjoy dok kat tepi pantai tu. Siap tanya smada dia leh berenang tak?? hehehe... pantang nmpak air.

Adik diam jer smbil tgok ombak. Mgkin dia pelik kot, nmpak air gerak2...

Abg sbnrnyer suh ummi shoot ke mulutnya.

Nak tunjuk kt maktok yg gigi dia tanggal sbtang lagi.

Tgok... Kan cantik sunset ne. Ummi suke...

Subhanallah

Walhamdulillah

Dlm byk2 menu, kerang bakar mesti smpai dulu. Ne abg nyer fav.

Butter prawn, sotong goreng tepung, siakap sweet sour. Yummy...

Dh x leh nk snap gmbr penuh, sbb abg ngan walid gerak x hnti2

Hiyargghhh... abg menepis nyamuk... Heran tul, nyamuk mesti serang abg kat mana2 shj. Klu kt kg, masa dok bkmpul ramai2, leh nmpak nyamuk blegar2 atas kepala dia. Sdgkan org len nyamuk x gigit pon. Cik Lili kata sbb abg byk vit B, nyamuk suka..

Ikan pari bakar + air asam. Sedap tul air asam, dia letak daun kesum. 1st time ummi jumpa. X lupa juga sup ayam unt adik. Sedappp... Fresh oren sejag. Total bill RM114. Worth it, siap tapau lagi sbb byk sgt.. Time order x hingat2.. Bila makan separuh jer abih. So, esoknya, kitorg sarapan nasi ngan lauk2 ne... Beshhhh....

Walid, nnt bawa kitorg g sini lg yek...

Tahniah, Ahmad Faris Zakwan

1 Ramadhan 1432h @ 1 Aug 2011. Akhirnya Ahmad Faris Zakwan Bin Ahmad Faizul, telah berjaya berpuasa penuh, tanpa sebarang paksaan. Alhamdulillah, Syukraan Jazilan... Terima kasih Ya Allah sebab kabulkan permintaan ummi.

Honestly, mungkin ada yg mengata, Ummi ne teruk lar sbb abg almost 8 yrs, br abg puasa penuh. Ummi x kisah, bagi ummi, ummi tetap berbangga ngan abg. Betapa susah nya nak mendidik anak, especially bagi Ummi yg rasa "isolated" kt Sg Buloh ne. Dh 2 @ 3 bulan dh ummi dok merayu kat Mak Tok supaya berpuasa kat sini, tp maktok x dpt dtg sbb ada urusan AIM kt kg. Ummi harap maktok ada kat sini, ramadhan ne semata2 nak latih abg bpuasa.

It's really headache to teach him, because he is soooo clever... So many answer & excuses. Boleh mereng ummi dibuatnya. Ummi start ajar abg puasa masa dia umo 5 tahun, 2008. Nak dpt sekerat hari punya lar seksa. Bila balik tadika, ummi tanya :

Ummi : Abg puasa lg ker??

Faris : Tak, dh makan kat tadika.

Ummi : Naper makan? Tak malu ker kat kawan?

Faris : Tak lah... Ramai yg makan tadi. Cikgu kata sapa x puasa leh makan.

hurmmm.... mgkin sbb dia kecik lg kot... Cuba tgok ghupa dia yg bijak ne...

On d next year pon sama. In fact, Maktok puasa kt umah ummi sbln sbb ummi ngandung kat Adik. Puas maktok ajar, pujuk... x layan gak. Paling2 kuat pon kul 1pm. Mesti dh tbukak... hehehe... alasannya, dia kecik lagi.. Tak kesian ker??

2010, also same. Bila ummi & ibu (bb sitter) x bagi dia makan, dia kata x per... Abg haus jer. Dpt minum jadi lar.. Air kosong pon x per. Berguling2 dia melalak, nak minum. Abg Fakhrudin (anak ibu) wat sorok cawan atas lemari, dikejarnya abg smpai bgaduh sbb nakkan cawan tu, nak minum air kosong jer pon.. Ibu mmg x masak, sbb adik mahfuzah yg br tadika 5 tahun pon posa.. So, klu dia buka pon, mmg smata2 unt minum air kosong jer. Huh, x tau lar nak wat camne lg.

Ramadhan 2011. Few months before ummi dah mula citer2 pasal posa. Satu hari dlm kete, on d way ke Kuala Selangor

Ummi : Abg kene posa tau tahun ne.

Faris : Naper plak??

Ummi : Abg kan dh besar. Bdosa tau klu x posa.

Faris : Ye ker abg dh besar. Abg dh keluar air mani ker???

Hahahaa..... apa nak jawab?? Mau tak mereng ummi dibuatnya. Cik Zmah, kawan ummi dh warning mggu sblum tu, sbb anak dara dia pon tanya soklan yg cenggitu. Diorg blaja kt skolah, dlm subject pendidikan islam. For sure, statement tu adalah unt "perkara2 yg membatalkan puasa". Huh, Faris2, slalu bg soklan menguji minda ummi ngan walid. Tensen tau.

Pagi 1 ramadhan 2011, Adik terjaga sbb ummi masak. Dia nangis & abg tkejut. Terus abg bingkas bangun, bukak suar, masuk bilik air. Tkejut ummi. Rupa2nya dia berus gigi+kencing . Nak sahur katanya. Alhamdulillah, habis nasik sepinggan. Ummi wat daging masak merah, fav. abg.

Tghr ibu kata muka abg dh len macam. Cm nak bukak posa, tp malu sbb ada kawan dia dtg umah ibu. Akhirnya berjaya gak tahan ke petang. Bila ummi smpai jer, dia ajak g bazar ramadhan. Walid yg bawa dia, tp diorg cuma beli air soya jer. Walid kata ramai sgt org. Long q. Huh, alasan... Walid mmg x suka bazar... Seb bek ummi smpat masak kari ikan bawal, sambal sotong & sayo cmpur. Abg makan nasi 2 pinggan. Seronok ummi tgok.

2 ramadhan 2011, as expected, adik bangun masa ummi tgh masak. Dia wat bising smpai abg tkejut. Terus abg bangun & basuh muka. Sahur ummi masak sambal udang & hangatkan baki lauk smlm. Abg mmg suka sambal especially sotong & udang. Mmg ummi sngaja masak, sbb nak pikat abg, hehehe...

Ummi cuak jer rini, sbb takut abg penat lps balik dr skolah. Alhamdulillah, ibu kata abg ok jerrr... Rini ummi ada Niosh training kt Bangi. Dsbbkan posa, kitorg x leh makan free kat cafe Niosh. So, suma muslim dpt vaoucher KFC snak plate + Air Kotak + Air Mineral + Epal + Kurma. Test abih kul 4.50pm. Ummi hntr opismate ummi ke komuter UKM, pastu terus pecut balik umah. Traffic slow. Abih kuat pon ummi leh bawa 120kmj jer. Kul 6.15pm br smpai umah. Abg dh siang2 ckp nak g redeem voucher KFC tu. Seb bek ummi dh siap2 tumis sambal pg td unt wat cencaru sumbat. So menu hari ne, cencaru sumbat + udang masak lemak belimbing buloh + kailan ikan masin. Abg cuma makan kfc & ratah ikan jer. Dia kata nasi tu reserve unt sahur jer lar.. Pas maghrib ummi tgok berita, abg lak dok golek2 main ngan adik. Skali ummi tperasan abg dh ttdo, cepat tul. X smpai kul 8.30pm Hurmmm letih tul ujian posa abg.

Alhamdulillah. Lega ummi rasa, abg dh boleh posa tnpa sbrg paksaan cm tahun2 lepas. Ummi doakan smoga abg istiqamah & sabar berpuasa pd tahun ne & tahun2 mendatang. All d best for abg, Smoga abg berjaya.

You're My Happiness

Last 2 weeks ummi g RSV Pasak, Johor. Sampai umah kul 1am. Pagi nyer, suma org bgun lambat & as usual abg mesti x nak pegi skolah klu ummi ada kat umah pagi2... Masa walid nak kuar g keje, ada sekor kucing dok mengiau2 mintak makan. Adik plak dok dlm bakul moto walid, x nak kuar. Nak ikut walid g keje lar tu, dah walid bawa round2 pon masih x cukup lagi... adik2... So, ummi pon, amik peluang ngan kucing manja ne, spy adik turun dr moto. hehehe... berjaya

Kucing ne, ummi rasa x bertuan. Sbb dia slalu dtg minta makan kt kitorg. Hubby Alia, jiran depan umah ktorg siap belikan friskies unt kucing ne. Anak2 dia suka main ngan kucing ne. So, kucing ne memang round2 kat area umah ktorg & sapa2 yg kesempatan akan bg dia makan. Pagi ne, x de apa nak kasi kt dia, tp faris beria2 nk bg gak dia mkn.. Ummi gelakkan jer bila Faris amik roti gardenia. Ummi kata, kucing makan nasik & ikan. Dia x makan roti. Unfortunately, kucing pekan ne, makan lar roti tu.. habis stgh keping. hurm.... mgkin dia benar2 lapar kot, Aliakan x der kat umah, since dia kene heart attack, dia balik kg dia, kat Perak. Mgkin sbb tu, kucing ne kelaparan sgt kot.. Masa kucing ne makan, Abg takut dia tcekik, so ummi suh bawakan air kosong dlm mgkuk kecik. Bila dia nampak kucing ne minum, dia kata kat ummmi :

"kesian kan kucing ne, makan roti kosong ngan air kosong jer... apa kata ummi bancuhkan susu abg, bg kat kucing ne secawan"

Hurmmm... nmpak gaya abg mmg mcm ummi kecik2 dulu, suka giler kat kucing. Mmg abg dok suh ummi belikan dia kucing sekor, tp ummi x setuju, sbb ummi takut kucing tu mati kelaparan cam ikan2 abg yg dulu hehehe.... Terkekek2 abg gelak tgok gaya kucing tu minum, dia pelik sbb kucing tu minum pakai lidah (menjilat), x macam manusia... hehehe... dah namanya kucing abg oiiii... Pastu, dia pelik tgok kucing tu baring smbil jilat kaki & bulu dia. Ummi pun explain lar, yg kucing tu dh kenyang, so dia tgh basuh mulut & tangan dia. Meleleh air liur adik sbb leka tgok kucing, terus lupa pasal motot walid... har3x...

Tgok, kucing ne mmg manja tul. Abg dok garu bwh tgkuk, dia... makin digaru, mata kucing tu makin kuyu, stimmm... syok lar tu...

20-24 Jun ritu, ummi ada makmal kt UTM Skudai. On d way blik KL, kitorg sggah Ait Itam, Johor. Syikin, kawan ummi nak beli pasu unt mak dia. Ummi nampak helikopter remote. Mmg rezeki abg, sbb ummi mmg dah janji nak beli heli ne masa besday abg last year, tp masih x kesempatan. Lgpon masa tu, ummi risau abg x pandai bawa & takut heli tu rosak klu asek thempas jer... Masa ummi smpai umah mlm tu, ummi bawa masuk suma brg2. Pastu ummi bagi "ulat" adik. Ummi bg set cawan kat mak tok. Abg dh mula btanya, ummi x beli apa2 ker unt dia. Ummi kata ummi ada beli kerepek unt abg. Muka abg sedey jer... Dh habis suma brg ummi bw masuk dlm umah, ummi kunci gate & bawa masuk heli tu sorok2. Abg muka sedey jer, dok belek "ulat" adik.

Masa ummi hulur kotak tu, abg wat2 tanya: ne unt sapa??

Bila ummi kata : untuk abg lar..

Terus abg kata : Macam mana ummi tau yg abg nak heli ne??

Ummi pon balas : Abg kan ank ummi, mesti lar ummi tau...

Abg gembira sgt.. terus dia buka kotak & main, tp dia x berani nak naikkan heli tu. So heli tu asek bpusing atas lantai, cm kete remote plak... hahaha....

Bangun jer pagi esok, mak tok kata, abg bgun kul 5 pagi, main heli ne, smpai habis bateri... hahaha.... abg betul2 gembira...

Ne lar "ulat" adik. Adik panggil "lat... lat" hehehe... comeyy... ada ABC smpai Z, no 0 sampai 12. Pastu suma kaki kuning tu boleh bunyi klu kene picit...

Tapi adik x bape suka "ulat" tu sbb dia x pandai picit. Tp klu abg picit, pandai plak dia nak berebut ngan abg.... hehehe... dirg ne mmg slalu berebut... dari mainan, makan & segalanya...

Adik lebih teruja ngan helikopter abg.

Adik slalu godek2 remote ne, dia cm tau jer kene pakai remote unt spy heli tu boleh terbang... Unfortunately, pas adik godek2, heli tu x gerak ponn... hahaha...

Bila penat godek remote, adik akan tarik2 kipas heli tu... seb bek flexi, klu plastik keras, mesti dh lama patah dikerjakan dek adik...

Cepat lar heli terbang... Dah penat adik godek2... naper dia x terbang pon....

Ummi rasa gembira sangat bila tgok anak2 ummi gembira. Rasa penat driving dr kuar umah 6am & sampai smula ker umah 1am on d next day, non-stop, alone.... otomatik hilang bila tgok anak2 ummi gembira. Lega dpt spend that morning together, to recover missing yesterday. Thanks Ya Allah, giving me this 2 presents from the Heaven.